Now, I'm really confused..and extremely sad.

I am hurting.  This isn't what I wanted.  It's funny how I use your exact words.

I look at my fone often, and I wish that I could get a phone call or a text from you.

As they all do.

The garbage or your heart?

That's where people go in your life.  And now I feel I am gonna be with all the dirt, and forgotten memories, and hated people.  I thought I did what was right.  Didn't you say you thought so too?  Then why do I feel abandoned?  Why do I feel I'm losing not only you but a lot more friends.

I miss you, terribly.  It must have not been apparent, but I fought for you.  I did.  

Ok.  I'm gonna admit it again.  I am jealous.  Everytime I'm with her and you give her a call to invite her to eat 'as usual', and I see how her face lights up and drop everything else to go, I feel something weird which I cannot exactly explain, but it is far from being pleasant.  It feels bad.  

I hope you still think of me sometimes.  I do not want you to forget me.  I am hurt when you say that sooner or later, you will.  I know that's what you need.  That's what you always do.  But please spare me.